alanda510's Blog

Blocked huh? But I thought you wanted to be friends??? LOL. Well, had you given me a real explanation for our break up, I wouldn't have to look for answers on FB.

P.S. You should really set your page to private ;-)

If I'm not your type, why choose to destroy my life. There are many people who I don't give the time of day because I know there's no chance between us... you know you don't like my kind, why did you make my heart your experiment? Just to see what my kind is like? Does it make you smile to know that I don't anymore? Does it bring you joy to know you can be frivolous with a woman's feelings? No matter what "type" we are we all hurt the same. Sorry I don't measure up to other standards of beauty. I used to believe I was beautiful in my own way. I hate that I hurt so bad. I don't think I'm getting better I'm just getting used to feeling terrible all the time.

I tripped
I fell
I crashed
I burned
but at least I know it's definitely over. Time to move on.

I wish there was an instruction manual. I'd follow every direction with no deviation; this would be the diet I wouldn't cheat on. I'll do anything to feel better.

I commit to no more tears. No more pining over old texts. I have to get on with my life.

I accept that I'm hurt. I have to give everything due time.

I don't know what to do with myself. I am a miserable mess. I'm terrified of people in general. Where did my confidence go? Why can't I be happy? This asshole has shaken my faith in people in general. I would completely understand if there was some sort or impasse or something really bad happened but nothing went wrong. He literally woke up one morning and decided he didn't want to be with me anymore. "Moving too fast"? Bitch please! Be a man and say what's really on your mind. We're moving too fast but one week later you're fucking someone else. I HATE YOU! I wish you would die! Or that this new bitch breaks your heart in to a billion pieces and it takes you three months to put it back together again. I so desperately want to move on but I'm afraid to get close to anyone because I'm scared they'll do this to me again. Please God.. anyone... tell me what did I do to deserve this. I was so happy before him. Who is he to come in my life and destroy it? Do you think you're too good for me? You're not. Do you think you'll find better than me? You won't. You need to take care of your insecurities before you decide to be a part of  another person's life.  The next woman may not politely disappear and whether I will is still up for discussion.